like 2004

lost hope. avoiding. hard everytime.

not really sure i want to turn it around. i'm perfectly happy, why can't this way just be okay? why do i have social pressure. i do just fine.

Britney

‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:19 PM]:
I think Britney's Unusual You is a nice song
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:19 PM]:
is that on circus?
‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:19 PM]:
yes
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:20 PM]:
oh yeah this song
it's kinda ballady-electronic
i find it amusing how much trevor hates britney spears
it makes me talk about her more
‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:21 PM]:
I've come full circle
I can't explain why I like her now
I just do
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:21 PM]:
doesn't really matter
you shouldn't have to explain why you like things
‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:22 PM]:
I s'pose. It helps to learn about yourself though.
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:22 PM]:
yeah
well, it took me a while to figure it out but i have a few reasons
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:26 PM]:
She was born same year as me, and is like a month older than me. So in a sense her and I are growing up in different parts of the same world. Somehow she has managed to wholely represent the issues of pop culture of this generation--celebrity, reality, authenticity, attitude, confidence and self-esteem, internet obsession, and on and on--every time she fails and every time she comes back, I feel like the story for the kids of the 80's is being written.
she is simulatenously someone that half of our generation hates and half of our generation loves. both valid opinions of her seem to represent the gamut of pop culture
oh and also she's hot
‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:28 PM]:
haha
good reasons
I think her music is really fun
and as for her... I feel really sorry for her
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:28 PM]:
oh yeah
i think she's entirely super depressed
‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:29 PM]:
I really feel like she's a girl who got used and marketed and is trying to find her way amongst all that
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:29 PM]:
i feel like her recent confidence-pop is making up for depression in her life
attempting to at least. but suspect she is really lost and isn't going to find real happiness anytime soon.
‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:29 PM]:
I agree
I can't imagine growing up like that and having had everyone betray you in one way or another and no one to really trust, b/c everyone wants to make money off of you
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:30 PM]:
yeah. exactly.
she has been at the forefront of pop culture for a long time. everyone talks about her. everyone writes about her. most googled term for years and years. that's got to do a number on even the most confident girl
‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:32 PM]:
yup.
I don't like how everyone feels justified in judging her so harshly
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:33 PM]:
well
‎‎Janani Krishnaswamy‎‎ [4:33 PM]:
she's was flipping 16 when she became a superstar
I was SUCH an idiot when I was 15
err 16
but 15 too
‎‎Justin Ng‎‎ [4:33 PM]:
i agree with you, but i can explain why people do it
gen Y has been bombarded with so many messages. marketing machines have improved to the point where everything appears to be manufactured, people are lied to constantly and everyone is generally suspicious of everything. media bias, marketing, even freaking reality tv has writers in the credits.
authenticity then becomes a thing that people hunger for
and people cynically target anything that doesn't appear authentic
people didn't care back in the day that elvis didn't write music
you were allowed to be a performer
but we're in a world where nothing is real anymore
so now you have to be a singer songwriter non-lipsyncher
or you are not authentic
it's backlash

Happy Birthday

...

What You Got

I peeped you on the phone
Just showin' off ya stones
And notice that that pinky ring is bright enough baby

I know you're not alone
But I could just be wrong
The way them fellas houndin' and sizin' you up baby

And I like the way you take advantage of
Every man you love
I see, and I know your game girl
But I don't mind if ya come and play with us
Just don't talk too much
I see, you're so cute you don't have to say a word

See all those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you're sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin' on the spotlight
Always in the club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop

Girl I can tell you want something to love
That's why you hold on to everything that pass you by
Can't resist girl and I can't lie
Now tell if you are here for me
Or everybody watchin' you shake from left to right
The way you move got me hypnotized

The way you take advantage of
Every man you love
I see, and I know your game girl
But I don't mind if ya come and play with us
Just don't talk too much
I see, you're so cute you don't have to say a word

See all those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you're sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin' on the spotlight
Always in the club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop

My eyes away from you girl when you get on the floor and do what you do
And errbody wanna come back to that body the kind and remind myself I'm like you
Cuase your that type to drive a man crazy will snatch him away from his lady
No matter how hard the man hold back he'll end up callin' you baby
And they never really know what to do once you expose that thang you do
Ya had him crawlin' on hands and knees and ya find a way to get 'em out that cheese
And why ya thinkin' you the only dude she off in the mall livin' off of you
Lettin' errbody know she got you but now you feel like a fool

See all those guys wanna come treat ya right
Cause you're sweeter than apple pie
Everything that you want you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Most beautiful thing in sight
Always takin' on the spotlight
Always in the club lookin hot
Girl you know that you need to stop

Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Always talkin' bout what you got
Girl you know that you need to stop

Hot N Cold

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes
Yeah you, PMS
Like a bitch
I would know

And you over think
Always speak
Cryptically

I should know
That you're no good for me

Cause you're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in then you're out
You're up then you're down
You're wrong when it's right
It's black and it's white
We fight, we break up
We kiss, we make up
You don't really want to stay, no
But you don't really want to go-o
You're hot then you're cold
You're yes then you're no
You're in and you're out
You're up and you're down

We used to be
Just like twins
So in sync
The same energy
Now's a dead battery
Used to laugh bout nothing
Now your plain boring

I should know that
You're not gonna change

Someone call the doctor
Got a case of a love bi-polar
Stuck on a roller coaster
Can't get off this ride

You change your mind
Like a girl changes clothes

Miles Away

I just woke up from a fuzzy dream
You never would believe those things that I had seen
I looked in the mirror and I saw your face
You looked right through me, you were miles away

All my dreams they fade away
I'll never be the same
If you could see me the way you see yourself
I can't pretend to be someone else

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

When no one's around then I have you here
I begin to see the picture, it becomes so clear
You always have the biggest heart,
When we're six thousand miles apart

Too much of no sound
Uncomfortable silence can be so loud
Those three words are never enough
When it's long distance love

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we’re at our best when we're miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

I'm alright, don't be sorry, but it's true
When I'm gone you'll realize
That I'm the best thing that happened to you

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles a-a-away...

You always love me more, miles away
I hear it in your voice, we're miles away
You're not afraid to tell me, miles away
I guess we're at our best when we're miles away

So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away
So far away

Another lesson in love

She's the center of attention, she's a beauty queen with possibilities.
She don't care for my affection, she's my obsession in her black designer jeans.
What more can I say, she keeps me up at night in unfamiliar ways.
I'll send a message to you, but you won't hear.
I'm hopeless and tired of waiting for you to appear.
I'm close, but you're so far.

Another lesson in love.
Why does it always have to be so hard?
I'm so desperate to feel her.
I've come way too close to leave and let it be.
Throwing my love out to her, praying one day that she'll come take it graciously.
What more can I say she keeps me up at night in unfamiliar ways.

I'll send a message to you, but you won't hear.
I'm hopeless and tired of waiting for you to appear.
I'm close, but you're so far.

Another lesson in love.
Why does it always have to be so hard?

Love Hurts

Tonight we drink to youth
And holding fast the truth
Don't want to lose what I had as a boy
My heart still has a beat
But love is now a feat
As common as a cold day in L.A.

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

I'm fettered and abused
Stand naked and accused
Should I surface, this one-man submarine?
I only want the truth!
So tonight we drink to youth!
I'll never lose what I had as a boy

Sometimes when I'm alone I wonder
Is there a spell that I am under
Keeping me from seeing the real thing?

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Without love I won't survive

Love hurts
But sometimes it's a good hurt
And it feels like I'm alive
Love sings
When it transcends the bad things
Have a heart and try me
'cause without love I won't survive

Love hurts, ohhh-oh ohh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive
Love hurts la-la-la-la-la-la oh
Love hurts
Without love I won't survive